坚强的外壳、脆弱的心

你能够相信你肉眼所看到的一切吗？

每个人都说我是一个坚强、倔强的女孩。。或许是吧。。。因为从小就没有在父母的呵护下长大，所以变得比同年龄的人来的坚强、成熟。至于倔强或许是因为我比较独立，常会坚持自己的看法，凡事都喜欢自己做决定。

但是，我真的有那么坚强吗？

没有人知道也没有肯去了解，其实在这看似外表坚强的我，心里其实在滴血，其实很孤单、很希望有人能花时间去了解我。

我就是倔强的不肯低头，不肯在大家面前承认其实我真的很脆弱。。。


可能是我伪装的太好了，大家都忘了我爱我，忘了其实在这世界的某个角落里有一颗需要呵护但被遗忘的心。。。

for you

i once said i will dedicate my next entry to you...

sometimes i dono if this is jus a part of the growing up stage...cuz its reali takin too long..

you once said tat i neglected you guys, tt i wasnt dere fer ya bdae party and all.. n becuz of tt you guys distant urself away frm me...thou i nv did mentioned but i was extremely lonely at tt time..becuz my bestest frens don understand wad i was gg thru.. like i told ya i understand where ya guys are comin frm, but did ya see tt at d lowest pt of my life who was by my side... and esp nw.. it wasnt u..

i have been thru wad u r gg thru nw.. the onli difference being..u are luckier cuz u have frens who try v hard to understand n accept wad u r doin.. but have ya thot abt me? i did nt receive such understandin back den.. it wasnt fair...i was all alone n nw ya have all ya frens but yet ya not treasuring wad u have....

i understand the agony ya gg thru.. but have u thot abt us? thot abt me? how mani times have ya let me down becuz of him? i thot our frenship was stronger n of more worth than tis..cuz after all we been thru so much together, but i guess i was wrong..thoroughly wrong... can u imagine how disappointed i m?

and ya noe wad?... i lost a best fren..i reali din wan to accept tt fact..but i wasnt left with any options...

...whenever i talked to u, ya often listenin with ya heart n mind elsewhere.. u noe how tt feels?


i jus wan u to noe tt, it pains my heart to see u in such misery...if u r gg thru all tis for someone worthy...it probably won have hurt so much...

i hope u noe.. u r the reason for the misery ya gg thru nw..

and count ya blessings... u r much luckier than i was...

watever ya guys blamed me for, had cause J to be drifted away frm me... J..someone who was my mirror image, someone who been thru much with me..a fren i thot would be frens forever.. this... already took a big part of me...n it still has a very great impact on me till today..

frm the day i knew u, u hv always been surrounded by a lot love n becuz u hav nv lost them.. u don understand how tt feels...don take wad u hav for granted cuz sometimes dere isnt any eraser in life...

saying all tis i jus wan u to noe tt, dere are many tings in life worthy of ur attention...in tis world there is more than jus him..
tink abt it... wen was the last time u stayed hm d whole day n be with ya family.. wen was the last time u spent proper time with us w/o havin to rush to n fro for him..


think...




p.s: for this friendship n for u i have given all tt i have..i hav nthin else i can offer...

Puppies For Sale

A farmer had some puppies he needed to sell. He painted a sign advertising the pups and set about Nailing it to a post on the edge of his yard. As he was driving the last nail into the post, he Felt a tug on his overalls. He looked down into the Eyes of a little boy. 

Mister," he said, "I want to buy one of your puppies." 
"Well," said the farmer, as he rubbed the sweat off the back of his neck, "these puppies come from fine parents and cost a good deal of money." 

The boy dropped his head for a moment. Then reaching deep into his pocket, he pulled out a handful of change and held it up to the farmer. "I've got thirty-nine cents. Is that enough to take a look?"
"Sure," said the farmer. 

And with that he let out a whistle,"Here,Dolly!" he called.
Out from the doghouse and down the ramp ran Dolly followed by four little balls of fur. The little boy pressed his face against the chain link fence. His eyes danced with delight.

As the dogs made their way to the fence, the little boy noticed something else stirring inside the doghouse. Slowly another little ball appeared; this One noticeably smaller. Down the ramp it slid. Then in a somewhat awkward manner the little pup began hobbling toward the others, doing its best to catch up....

"I want that one," the little boy said, pointing to the runt. 
The farmer knelt down at the boy's side and said, "Son, you don't want that puppy. He will never be able to run and play with you like these other dogs would."

With that the little boy stepped back from the fence, reached down, and began rolling up one leg of his trousers. In doing so he revealed a steel brace running down both sides of his leg attaching itself To a specially made shoe.
Looking back up at the farmer, he said, "You see sir, I don't run too well myself, and he will need Someone who understands."


"The world is full of people who need someone who understands."

Sand & Stone

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, wrote in the sand: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE."

They kept on walking until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one, who had been slapped, got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After the friend recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE."

The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him, "After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?"

The other friend replied: "When someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."


“ Perhaps all of us should start learning how to write our pains and sorrows in the sand and let the wind and rain take it away… and to engrave our happiness on the stones and remember it always… perhaps then we’d truly be happy…”

Love and Time

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said, 
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her. 

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder, 

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."