I Love You, Honey

They have been married for two years. He loves literature, and often posts his work on the net, but nobody ever reads them. He is also into photography, and he handle their wedding photos. He loves her very much. Likewise with her. She has a quick temper, and always bullies him. He is a gentleman, and always gives in to her.

Today, she's being "willful" again.

Her: "Why can't you be the photographer for my friend's wedding? She promised she'd pay."
Him: "I don't have time that day."
Her: "Humph!"
Him: "Huh?"
Her: "Don't have time? Write less of those novels, and you will have all the time you need."
Him: "I... someone will definitely recognize my work some day."
Her: "Humph! I don't care; you'll have to do it for her.
Him: "No."
Her: "Just this once?"
Him: "No."

Negotiation's broken. So, she gave the final warning: "Give me a Yes within three days, or else..."

First day.
She "withheld" the kitchen, bathroom, computer, refrigerator, television, and hi-fi... Except the double bed, to show her "benevolence". Of course, she has to sleep on it too. He didn't mind, as he still has some cash in his pockets.

Second day.
She conducted a raid and removed everything from his pockets, and warned, "Seek any external help, and you bear the consequences." He's nervous now. Night. On the bed. He begs for mercy, hoping that she'll end this state. She doesn't give a damn. No way am I giving in, whatever he says. Until he agrees.

Third day.
Night. On the Bed. He's lying on the bed, looking to one side. She's lying on the bed, looking to the other side.

Him: "We need to talk."
Her: "Unless it's about the wedding, forget it."
Him: "It's something very important."

She remains silent.

Him: "Let's get a divorce."

She did not believe her ears.

Him: "I got to know a girl."

She's totally angry, and wanted to hit him.
But she held it down, wanting to let him finish.
But her eyes already felt wet.
He took a photo out from his chest.
Probably from his undershirt pocket, that's the only place she didn't go through yesterday. How careless.

Him: "She's a nice girl."

Her tears fell.

Him: "She has a good personality too."

She's heartbroken, because he puts a photo of some other girl "close to his heart".

Him: "She says that she'll support me fully in my pursue for literature after we got married."

She's very jealous, because she said the same thing in the past.

Him: "She loves me truly."

She wishes to sit up and scream at him: "Don't I?"

Him: "So, I think she won't force me to do something that I don't want to do."

She's thinking, but the rage won't subside.

Him: "Want to take a look at the photo I took for her?"
Her: ".....!"

He brings the photo before her eyes.
She's in a total rage, hits his hand away and leaves a burning mark of a slap on his face.

He sighs.
She cries.

He puts the photo back to his pocket.
She pulls her hand back under the blanket.

He turns off the light, and sleeps.
She turns on the light, and sits up.

He's asleep.
She lost sleep.

She regrets treating him the way she treated him.
She cried again, and thought about a lot of things.
She wants to wake him up.
She wants to have an intimate talk with him.
She doesn't want to push him anymore.
She stares at his chest. She wants to see how the girl looks.
She slips the photo out.

She wanted to cry, and she wanted to laugh.
It's a nicely taken photo of her. A photo he took for her.
She bends down, and kissed him on his cheek.

He smiled. He was just pretending to be asleep.


By: Author Unknown, Source Unknown

Xin gan bao bei

iTs a loVely sWeeT sOng. enJoY!~

Da Nan Ren Xiao Nu Hai JJ Lin

不是我的错
我们都听过
完美的时候
要更多
找这时候说的太多
有时候的我
只想和你一样沉默
不想单单罗罗嗦嗦
谁也灭不掉的火
也许大男人真的很男人

也许大男人没那么男人
少了点风度
还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错的
不想借口只是直接一天说
有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的遗留变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

思

当两个人的步伐越来越不一致时，有一方将会开始觉得越来越跟不上，越来越累，甚至有一些力不从心。

我们之间的距离似乎越来越远，越来越没有共同的话题。
最近发现，我们之间少了问候，多了许多磨擦和对你的不耐烦。。

从前的甜蜜和温柔渐渐的不见了。

仍然努力维系这段感情是因为周遭的压力，还是因心里仍依依不舍？
是因为已经习惯了彼此，还是因为仍爱着对方？

看不见，摸不到的未来，让我越来越不踏实。。曾经以为你很了解我，但最近我却觉得你不懂我想要些什么，而我也不想多解释。。

从前的我们，从前的期待似乎快消失 了。。。你不也察觉到了吗？为什么还仍然要装出一副若无其事的样子呢？

“累了想静下来， 累了不想再去多想，在我身旁的你真的是你吗？是我的真命天子吗？我已经越来越不清楚了。。只知道我好累。。真的好累。。。”


:. "We tend to only see what we see, and we often don't see what we don't see..."

Reflection?

Strange as it sounds, but i felt i have grown up after the trip to thailand.. well,i am not saying that i wasn't mature before but rather this trip had opened up my heart and mind to alot of tings.. things i nv thot could be so simple..

like i asked in my previous entry.. what is happiness and bliss?

i found my answer... and this trip is e reason for the change in my views towards this question..

During this trip..i have learnt that happiness could be something really simple..it is how much u see and experienced that changes ur views on happiness..

happiness is simply contentment... someone who is contented is someone who is happy.. like many have said, if u r contented with wad u have, you will be happy.. i have learnt this.. "stop peering over the hedge and see what u don have but rather look at urself and see what u already possess.." some people can possess very little but yet they lead a happy life, thats because they are contented and is able to grasp hold onto happiness..


This trip allowed me to experience a kinda happiness that i haven felt for a long time.. and the reason to that happiness.. is simplicity..

as far as i know, those people that i noe in thailand, they are so simple and kind..its the warmth tt u will feel wen u r with them..some kinda feeling that i hadnt felt for a long time..

Growing up in the environment like we all are in, we are often wary of people ard us and we have to often wear a different mask in front of ppl..and that becomes a chore over time..but when i spend time with these thai frens, i feel less guarded..because even though they couldnt really express themselves well with words but i could tell they are really sincere..

this is warmth between humans that i thought.. i haven felt for such a long time...


Coming back to the real world, i often questioned myself why when there is a get together, there is a time for separation? how often i wished i could be back there...where everything was tough but yet simple..

But..well..i should be contented because we had a chance to meet and became such close friends..


I know i have benefited much more than any other interns .. and through this trip i have found my long lost dream and passion..
someone enlightened me.. by telling me this; " it is always good to know that you have the ability to help someone.."



whats my dream?

:. to travel ard the world and share with the others..i have always wanted to go overseas to teach or to share some of my knowledge with the less fortunate..

no....i am not tryin to be noble..

but rather its a little dream/wish in me, that i wana travel and along the way... share..and leave something behind...


travelling have always been my passion...cuz i believe travelling will broaden ur horizon.. the more you see, the more u wan to learn..the more u learn..the more u realise how much u dont know...
when u get to see and experience alot.. u will come to realise that a lot of nitty gritty stuff don matter any more..

you will learn to have a bigger heart and will be able to accept more flaws of people...



ps: if you are reading this, i want thank you for so much for your guidance wen we were in thailand, for being my mentor, my brother, and for sharing all your experiences with me..i have learnt so much... much more than what books could offer...



...And somehow i hope this trip is a turning point for me, and someday my family will come to understand my dream..